if life had a free extended warranty, wouldn't you take it?

hmm...today was lame. wish i could be at the mall right now with all of the people that i love, but it turns out i'm working at school...and will make $65. i'm on mr. ely's laptop...don't tell him. got in trouble because i climbed through a window. today was lame...better get off before i get in trouble. pray for me for this next week please.

:EDIT:
today's still really lame. made some money. come back: friends, summer, summer camps, sanity, physical strength, mental strength, the opposite of history class, the opposite of math take-home test, a life in two weeks...i feel so bad right now. i'd elaborate or intensely complain, but that's a potential danger...but i'll protect this post anyway, just for kicks. stay strong.

:RE-EDIT:
cool...if you're reading this, you're a special crew of elite trustworthy people...you know who you are (don't go around asking other people if they can read this).

i don't get it. today was a really bad day. i could have used a bit more sleep when i woke up at 7 to go work for 5 hours...doing spotlight, which requires a lot of minuscule, constant focus. luckily, i didn't have to stay at school for the entire day. i got leave at 1...but things were kind of lame because i had to go garage-sale shopping with ruth and mom (and i hate shopping...) and then we were trying to go to Target and i almost crashed trying to make a lane change...it was just really bad. finally got home. couldn't do homework. just tried to sleep and then played piano a bit...waiting for the internet or phone line that i never actually got. got accepted into some forensics science camp at ECU...out of 600 applicants (probably not going too...err). tried to bike to mike's house, but hit Wal-Mart and just turned around...barely made it back too. took a shower and had to leave to go back to school. climbed through the window to the booth and got mr. ely (tech teacher guy) mad at me...called aileen (maybe that's you) and learned i was missing out on an awesome time (even if it wasn't awesome...better than being at school). oh yeah, didn't get to eat dinner...i'm eating it right now (11:59). did nothing for about two hours before the dance recital started, and then it was relatively lame. i spent all of the time either working on the spotlight or studying for the euro history test i have on monday (whose notes i am severely lacking in). and...nothing seems to be going right. and i guess i'm beginning to feel kind of isolated because it's that feeling that you're not loved. or like you're doing all of this junk and no one notices. kind of like, i could be going through a deeper turmoil than ruth (sorry to use sibling example...) but i can't complain about it without being deemed selfish or without kind of challenging ruth. though i've broken a lot of walls with ruth, it's still a superior-inferior relationship...and i'm pretty sure ruth doesn't forget. like with me almost crashing the car, that's instantly given her the right to assume that i'm following that path of bad car-skill and then assume a whole bunch of junk after that...like i don't see consequences for my actions or i don't have a regard for life or anyone besides myself.

or it just seems so lame that i re-dedicated myself on thursday and i had all this energy and momentum going...and i hit a brick wall in today. i know i can't be forgotten by God, but how much can the Devil do to me?

i'm gonna need a 4-shot or something. see ya later. if you can, words of encouragement or answers or whatever it is you have to dchang07@hollandhall.net