I can't believe that I thought I could go on a missions trip and stay the same - I was talking about how much I would be changed and never be able to turn back, but I really had no idea. If you had read my testimony a long time ago, you would have known that my baptism wasn't an especially memorable one. Only a few knew that I had asked Mike to privately baptize me, a while after everyone else from youth group was baptized. And then all of you remember the one Friday night with the olive oil and totally intense prayer session. Then into that the very frequent necessity to stay a strong Christian, along with the knowledge that of Mexico City's discouraging pagan lifestyle, and you have a beyond perfect set-up (to the point we can't even imagine) for a revolution. And He got four of us at the same time - blazed the fire, and it seriously could not have been more perfect.
The point was essentially that I was saved - I've given my life. Enrolled in the army of God. But seriously - I answer to God only now. I can't help but live my life for God - I can't live my life like I want to. That would only be consciously killing myself - living life in accordance to myself only blows up in my face. I know - I've tried. But this was my baptism - Billy and I were prayed upon, then Ruth and Aileen later - and that was my baptism. But it was four at a time too - Ruth was completely knocked out - then glued to the ground for a long time, drained of energy. And Aileen was speaking in tongues again (awesome!). But this is huge for me - God has finally become so real to me. I can't go back - I can't be the same now with this barrier, and I definitely can't fall into temptation and become another punk product of this world. This is huge - I have given my life to God. This is what I've been waiting for - and now, I follow God wherever He leads me. Wherever He leads me - I own Him my life. But with Him, He won't let us fall - He'll keep us safe and sound, fitting us into the intricate patterns of His perfect plan, which only grows more perfect as it involves us. God's starting a revolution in this youth group...and the world. Details soon. Maximum sleep tonight = 5 hours.
The point was essentially that I was saved - I've given my life. Enrolled in the army of God. But seriously - I answer to God only now. I can't help but live my life for God - I can't live my life like I want to. That would only be consciously killing myself - living life in accordance to myself only blows up in my face. I know - I've tried. But this was my baptism - Billy and I were prayed upon, then Ruth and Aileen later - and that was my baptism. But it was four at a time too - Ruth was completely knocked out - then glued to the ground for a long time, drained of energy. And Aileen was speaking in tongues again (awesome!). But this is huge for me - God has finally become so real to me. I can't go back - I can't be the same now with this barrier, and I definitely can't fall into temptation and become another punk product of this world. This is huge - I have given my life to God. This is what I've been waiting for - and now, I follow God wherever He leads me. Wherever He leads me - I own Him my life. But with Him, He won't let us fall - He'll keep us safe and sound, fitting us into the intricate patterns of His perfect plan, which only grows more perfect as it involves us. God's starting a revolution in this youth group...and the world. Details soon. Maximum sleep tonight = 5 hours.
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