well, God found me again. was there ever any doubt? Arkansas retreat with my friends from Edmond, so i'll be gone from tonight to 9:30 or so on thursday. and at the same time, i was reading the Jesus Freaks books and got psyched. i don't know...just a reminder and everything. [never lose focus] "But if i lose this life, I know i'll find it in You. so won't You take my life, cause i surrender to You, i'm running back to the truth. You're word is clear, I've got to believe." so, actually, i will get the momentum i need to last me until school, or IHOP.

so i went to sleep at around 11 (though i was kind of tired at 6). and, i guess i was thinking too much, because i woke up at 2:30 and then over and over again with a stomach-ache and couldn't go back to sleep. and then it got unbearable, so i decide to check xangas...yes. [and now it's still persisting...] and i think someone's eating dinner right now too. must be having the time of her life, at least. yeah. God's working through all of us, big and small. and she's simply following. yep. with confidence, she's protected.

happy birthday mike!

and hopefully, the best to you in texas, satoshi. you meant a lot to the youth group, and we'll definitely miss you, especially if we're discussing communism. thanks for everything.

i don't know...i think all we ever want to know is that everything's gonna be okay. and coming from the world, we tell ourselves everything's going to be okay if we can make a certain grade on a test or get a bunch of friends or whatever. but the reality of everything is that it doesn't matter at all. not even of minuscule importance. did we miss God's promise? He's with us whenever, wherever. that means that through everything we can go through, everything's still gonna be okay.